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I am a therapist, animal lover, avid reader, and blogger of all things bookish! I read mostly fantasy, sci-fi and dystopian novels, but sometimes I like to switch it up with biographies and memoirs.

Freedom comes at a cost...
Ella was genetically engineered to be the perfect pet--graceful, demure...and kept. In a daring move, she escaped her captivity and took refuge in Canada. But while she can think and act as she pleases, the life of a liberated pet is just as confining as the Congressman's glided cage. Her escape started a revolution, but she's trapped, unable to get back to Penn--the boy she loves--or help the girls who need her.
Back in the United States, pets are turning up dead. With help from a very unexpected source, Ella slips deep into the dangerous black market, posing as a tarnished pet available to buy or sell. If she's lucky, she'll be able to rescue Penn and expose the truth about the breeding program. If she fails, Ella will pay not only with her life, but the lives of everyone she's tried to save...
Remember. This wasn't freedom. This room with its dingy walls and small, square window, was just another cell. Another cage. Only this time Penn wasn't here to help me get away.
This time, I'd have to escape on my own.
When my world was split in two, after the US police dragged Penn in one direction, while the Canadian officers pulled me in another, a part of me felt like I stayed tethered somewhere across the border, waiting for Penn to come walking across that bridge, no handcuffs weighing down his wrists, no bright red gash across his forehead. Just him, whole and well and complete.
But with that half of me gone, I couldn't think straight anymore. There was only space for one thing: getting back to Penn.I was proud of Ella in parts of this book. In parts, I wanted to yell, "What the hell are you thinking?!?!?!" However, Ella has definitely grown and learned since her days at the Congressman's house.
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What country isn't a charnel house of its own history?
Two people fall in love in a world where the past is a dangerous country, not to be talked about or visited. As they discover where they came from and where they are going, a bigger, more shattering truth is revealed to them.
Kevern doesn't know why his father made him put two fingers across his lips whenever he began a work with a J. It wasn't then, and it isn't now, the time or place for asking questions. Ailinn, too, has grown up in the dark about who she was and where she came from. On their first date, Kevern kisses the bruises under her eyes. He doesn't ask who hurt her. Brutality has grown commonplace. They aren't sure whether they have fallen in love of their own accord or whether they've been pushed into each other's arms. But who would have pushed them, and why?
Hanging over all the lives of everyone in this novel is a momentous catastrophe - a past event shrouded in suspicion, denial and apology, now referred to as WHAT HAPPENED, IF IT HAPPENED.
Tender and terrifying, J deserves to be spoken in the same breath as Nineteen Eighty-Four and Brave New World.
and that time he said Mary-Louise, Mar-la-weez, Mar-la the beautiful, Mar-la beautiful, that's it, Mommy, I will call you Mar-la beautiful. I will call you that forever, until my bones are air.Small spoiler (kind of, but not really): MLP writes one letter to the orderly in the hospital when her son was born, which ends with:
I haven't even heard it yet, the sound that will make me happy to have been born, mommy. I have that coming. It will make one taller, brighter, better. Put everything in its proper order of importance.Reading about some of the inspirational men in her life made me want to go meet people like them (or them), so that I can have a similar relationship with them. The Storyteller being the epitomy of this.
We told each other already. There is no need to write to you, I just wanted to see you in these pages, despite the fact that I cannot put you into words. You mean something untranslatable.The chapter about adopting her daughter made me cry. And she writes to an animal, which made me love her on a whole other level! Even though, at first, (minor spoiler) I thought she was writing to a dog, this made me so happy!